Life Lessons

Life has a way of tipping you upside-down sometimes. It's not like I have never had this happen before, so I am not quite sure why it always takes me by surprise. Every once in a while I just have a bad day and the adversary loves to take advantage of that and fill my head with all sorts of negative thoughts and feelings. I know how to combat this, I have done it many many times. What I don't know is, why does it take me so long to do it! I don't know why I have to wallow in self-pity and blow things out of proportion, but I guess I am only human and the only thing I can do about that is to try and learn something new. Yesterday was one of those days when I just couldn't seem to shake the negative and look for the positive. I was feeling a little down on myself and let myself indulge in some thoughts and feelings that probably were a little justified, but not as bad as I let myself think they were.

I am feeling much better than I was, but I am still not quite myself yet and I am having a hard time not being able to do everything I have been used to doing - - BUT, my health WILL continue to improve and I WILL be able to do everything again, just not today. I am trying to learn patience!

I have been feeling somewhat guilty that I have sent my son to live with my sister for the rest of the school year and wondering why I could not be everything my son needed - - BUT, from everything I have heard, he is doing GREAT!! I am so grateful for family and the willingness they have to help. I am learning that I don't have to be everything and that asking for help is OK!

I am also feeling a little sad that I will be released from my calling as Primary President this Sunday (shhhh, don't tell anyone yet!). I have been in that calling for 3 years and I will really miss working with the children - - BUT, the things I have learned and everything I have experienced there have been an awesome TESTIMONY BUILDER! I know that my time there is done and that it is time for another wonderful person have the opportunity to learn and grow like I have done.

So, I guess life is not that bad after all. I have an amazing husband, 5 great kids, and healthy baby on the way, a home to live in, food to eat, phenomenal parents and siblings and extended family, and a firm testimony that my Heavenly Father loves me and wants me to be happy. I also firmly believe in the ministering of angels and I am grateful for a mother who listens to those promptings and acts on them. (Thanks again MOM).

So for today, I plan to be - - HAPPY!! (It makes life a whole lot funner that way!)